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Three unique things...

by TJ - iAmCleared2Land in

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i like this topic!

1. i went to an amusement park with friends when i was 17, when getting ready to go on the bumper boats the attendant told me to not step on the rubber part... listening wasn't my strong suite so i stepped on the rubber part and fell in much to the amusement of everyone there.

2. for my 18th birthday my friends took me to see male strippers, my friend held money over my head and when the guy came to collect i refused to put it in his g-string and he called me a prude.

BIG D

I MET DAVID BOWIE, AT STEVIE RAY VAUGHNS HOUSE IN AUSTIN

WENT TO MICHAEL JACKSONS HOUSE

HAD SEX WITH A PLAYBOY PLAYMATE, INDIA ALLEN

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Remembering Danny

by purplesofa in

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i did not realize i had a topic left.. two years ago my brother committed suicide.. people from this board were very helpful and supportive.. suicide of a loved on is a difficult death to deal with.. my heart goes out to all who have lost a loved one to suicide.

purps.

i had this song played at his funeral ......sharing it with you all.. .

BIG D

sometimes i feel so hollow, like i am not really a person anymore, just a shell that walks and talks, i hope i am not feeling the way my son did, i know its kinda normal to be grieving but it feels so all consuming

big d

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Remembering Danny

by purplesofa in

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i did not realize i had a topic left.. two years ago my brother committed suicide.. people from this board were very helpful and supportive.. suicide of a loved on is a difficult death to deal with.. my heart goes out to all who have lost a loved one to suicide.

purps.

i had this song played at his funeral ......sharing it with you all.. .

BIG D

Thanks, purps,

i know that i am not the only one who hurts or who has hard times, it keeps me from being so hopeless,in my years of bein a witness some scriptures still help, romans helps, i know that i did my best, i told him i loved him every day, and i hug and kiss all my boys daily, they dont like it, or so they say, but they all know daddy loves them, i know he did too, he left me a note and told me so, life never works out like i think it will, its so wierd, but i go on and i still smile and give big hugs to my twins, and i think of him, i keep him in my heart , a little piece of it gone now, but enough for me to live on, some days i still fall to pieces, they fall all around me, i pick them up and reattach them, and sometimes they fall off again, i reattch them again , not always in the right place though, iam hoping someday they will be, love to all moms and dads, only you know how it feels to raise a your babies.

big d

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NEED ADVICE opinions wanted.

by burningbridges in

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ok, i need advice, i put this originally under a different thread but definitely not angled the right way.... opinions wanted!!!!!!.

i really want to have another baby right now, but i'm going through a divorce.

the guy i'm with right now is great (been with him eight months ok, stop, don't judge, listen to the whole story!!!

BIG D

wait til divorce over, adding fuel to the fire!

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Remembering Danny

by purplesofa in

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i did not realize i had a topic left.. two years ago my brother committed suicide.. people from this board were very helpful and supportive.. suicide of a loved on is a difficult death to deal with.. my heart goes out to all who have lost a loved one to suicide.

purps.

i had this song played at his funeral ......sharing it with you all.. .

BIG D

I have prayed for all of you!!

My oldest son who was 18 , commited suicide three months ago, i am still numb, as i was a witness for many years, i did the service, amny disagreeed , but it made me feel closer to him, i raised him as a only parent foe 6 years, alone, in the end i could not undo the damage that his mothers non love had done, a childs heart is so tender, and his broke.

big d

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My lesbian neighbors are driving me nuts!

by dawg in

ok my gay friends, i'm going to pick on you a minute, but you know i love you all... .

me... liberal male, could care less what you do with your sex organs, i only care about what i do with mine...that said, i've several gay friends... none of which are monogamous.

so, my next door neighbors are lesbians, neither are the hate all males types like some i have known in the past... matter of fact, one loves sports and hangs out here watching football and other sports with me at least once a week.

BIG D

Hey Dawg

I would have told the non butch to do me otr ill tell, it was gonna blow up anyway , and she was using you, soooooo

big d

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Why exactly do you come to this board?

by R.Crusoe in

i wondered if anyone, after starting to post here after so long being worried about doing, now just does it because they acn and hasn't stopped to ask why the still feel the need or even pleasure.. so why do you come here?.

do you know?.

it's not easy to completely explain what it is substiruting for imo!.

BIG D

To feel better about myself and the years i wasted not living my own life, and to know that i am normal, and not the only one

big d

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YOUR DAILY JOURNAL

by compound complex in

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dear friends,.

much of what we do on a daily basis is routine and of no particular, earth-shaking importance.

however, after reviewing letters of family going back to wwii, it is fascinating to read what dad was doing on board the aircraft carrier in the pacific on any old day, what mom was cooking on her ever-steaming range, how i was dealing with the roller coaster of emotion at bethel [mom saved all my letters], how nana wrote that she would not study with the witnesses [per my request] but 'here are some mittens i knitted for you when you canvass new york with your magazines.

BIG D

big d

just woke up, kids are at grandmas, didnt go out last nite, im pretty boring and tired of being single, my x wants to come back, but shes a real evil person, to the core, lost the kids to me in court 5 years ago, never paid any support, so i wont be goin there.

still i think there must be something wrong with me, cant seem to form a relationship for a while now, i admit being selfemployed and raising twin 8 year olds and a 17 year old keep me so busy, where am i supposed to have the time to look?

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